I Failed You

I came to you “broken”

And saw that you were broken too.

You opened your doors to “fix” me,

And although I agreed, it was because

I saw that it was you I was to save.

I recognized the Thing squatting within you

I shined my light to drive the demon out,

And while it writhed and twisted in pain

You chastised me for being too bright.

I acted the way you expected –

Crazier than you.

I stayed asleep, much easier by far

Than to be awake and see the scars,

The scars that scored your soul

Left from It’s poisoned claws.

I took my leave of you

Bereft of strength and will,

Angry that I couldn’t help.

No matter how hard I tried

I couldn’t get past your stubborn pride.

You couldn’t quite see the saving hand

Kept outstretched and waiting.

But now I’ve gone

And the bond is fading

While you give in to the twisted, blackened thing.

I still hope and pray

Even when others believe It’s there to stay.

I punish myself,

I blame myself

For my complete and utter failure to help.

I failed you my friend,

My love my heart,

I failed to defeat the demon

That is now tearing you apart.

Leave This Mortal Realm

I lie alone on my bed,

My life bleeding from my hand.

No one even bothered to call

To find out what was in my head.

How can you live with bitterness?

How can you live with anger?

Don’t tell me you understand

As my Body turns to dust.

You don’t know,

Cause you didn’t even try.

Nobody even asked,

And it’s my turn to die.

The silent room once full of life

Now only reeks of silent torture

My haunted smile fooled everyone.

You can never live with what you’ve done

The hatred built up so deep inside.

Don’t tell me to be strong

I don’t want to carry on

With the sunlight blocked by the curtains of my soul.

Don’t bother with the lies,

No one can help me now,

And no one really wants to

Everybody's Whore

Lately it seems to me

That I am everybody’s whore

And nobody’s girl,

And I didn’t seem to care.

They call me up with slick tones

And sexy growl,

“Hey baby, whatcha up to?”

And my answer is expected to be

Coyly laughing “Nothing”.

I am everybody’s whore

And nobody’s girl,

And they don’t seem to care.

As soon as passion subsides

They immediately seek my relationship advice.

Except its not me they want to win,

It’s some other girl that’s caught their eye.

I’m everybody’s whore

And nobody’s girl,

And suddenly I seem to care.

This phone of mine continues to ring

And I wonder if I should start to charge,

But I’m tired of being used as a sexual plaything,

I’m everybody’s whore

And nobody’s girl,

And finally I seem care.

But I won’t play this role anymore.

For once I would like to be

Somebody’s girl

And nobody’s whore.

Never Left

You’ve never left.

I see you standing there

In front of me in my mind.

My eyes burn

My heart aches

My hands shake

As I light this cigarette

To try and mute the senses.

I am sick of seeing your disembodied face.

I am tired of hearing your whispered voice.

I’m fed up with feeling your phantom touch

Skim across my skin.

Stay out of my head,

Stay out of my dreams,

Why won’t you just leave?

Why won’t I?

Nothing seems to break this,

Not distance, not time,

Because you’ve never left.

But neither have I.

Remove the Veil

You are fixed on her point.

And I can’t help but wish

To grab your shoulders

And spin you around

I don’t care where you land,

There are so many more who are willing.

You keep saying she is blind,

Well Baby, so are you.

I want to scream in frustration

To shout from the rooftops

To pry off the blinders!

Open you eyes, Open your mind

And finally realize it’s time –

It’s time to stop twisting and turning

Bending and Breaking.

It’s time to just full stop.

It’s time to just Be.